Saturday, July 31, 2010

July 31, 2010


Tell me some stories about your mom. I want to hear about you when you were younger. Were you a good kid? How do you think your relationship with your mother has affected your life? I only ask because I am sort of a single parent myself. I always worry about how my actions reflect to my son.

Hope all is well.

Love and friendship,


Friday, July 30, 2010

July 29, 2010

sounds like u all had a great time. its nice to have friends. i like to bowl too. im not real good but its a ball and im good at all games involving those round objects, lol

going outside here in a little bit. starting a new workout routine. the old one got stell.


July 29, 2010

i need someone to look at these two web-sites, lawyers and (families against manditory minimums) and see whats the deal with the passing of a bill that reduced the crack cocaine to powder cocaine ratio from 100 to 1, to 18 to 1. i heard it on the radio yesterday, but i only caught the end of the story.


July 28, 2010

hello. glad to hear from u. good to hear that u and ur son had fun in omaha. mary said she wished u lived there. its been a long time since she has had a real friend. thank u for being a great friend to my girls. i really miss them and i cant wait to be able to see them and talk face-to-face. sept 8th will be two yrs since i saw mary, 2yrs and 1day since i saw jalen. but it feels like 5 million yrs, 9 months, 3 hundred 72 days, 34 minutes 21 seconds, and


Monday, July 26, 2010

July 26, 2010

Hi Paul!

I just got back from having a wonderful weekend with the girls! It was so good to see Mary and Jalen again. I also got to see those two crazy boys, Spot and Luke. The kids are growing up so fast! Jalen gets more beautiful every day.

We had a weekend full of fun. My son came along with me this time. We also got to see crazy Dale. I went over to his apartment and was practically attacked by his freakin bird! Damn thing kept coming after me! So I left.

Anyway, we ate great food, and also did a little bowling. My son loves to bowl. Jalen and I watched from the sidelines as Luke, The Kid and Dale were trying to beat each other. It was so much fun!

Hope you are doing well! Shoot me an email soon so I know how YOU are doing. You don't always have to write one for the blog. Your letters are always best when it comes from the heart. That is how you should always write.

Much Love and Friendship,


July 23, 2010

thank u very much. after reading that book i feel different. i cant wait to end this nitemare and get on with the rest of my life.


Thursday, July 22, 2010

July 18

i recieved a book from home last week, "the new jim crow, mass incarceration in the age of colorblindness" by michelle alexander. ronald e. hamilton executive director, national black police association says, "it is a powerful analysis of why and how mass incarceration is happening in america, the new jim crow should be required reading for anyone working for real change in the criminal justice system".

as the united states celebrates the nation's "triumph over race" with the election of barack obama, the majority of young black men in major american cities are locked behind bars or labeled felons for life. jim crow laws were wiped off the books decades ago, but today an astounding percentage of african american community is warehoused in prisons or trapped in a permanent, second-class status- much like their grandparents before them, who lived under an explicit system of control.

in this stunning and incisive critique, civil rights lawyer-turned-legal scalor michelle alexander argues that we have not ended racial caste in america: we have simly redesigned it. alexander shows that, by targeting black men through the war on drugs and decimating communities of color, the u.s. criminal justice system functions as a contemporary system of racial control. in the current era, it is not permissible to use race, explicitly, as a justification for discrimination, exclusion, and social contempt. yet it is perfectly legal to descriminate against criminals in nearly all the ways that it was once legal to descriminate against african americans. the old forms of discrimination - discrimination in employment, housing, education, and public benefits; denial of the right to vote; and exclusion from jury service- are suddenly legal once you're labeled a felon.

alexander challenges the civil rights community, and all of us, to place mass incarceration at the forefront of a new movement for racial justice in america.

i use to "think" that i was a P.O.W..after reading this book, i now "know" that i am a prisoner of amerikkka's fake azz war on drugs, a caste system designed to label black and brown men "felons". a system that is responsible for the mass incarceration of over 2 million of this countries own citizens. labeling kids as young as 15, 16 years old felons and locking them in adult prisons for a decade for non-violent minor drug possession.

america the beautiful.


Friday, July 16, 2010

July 12, 2010

this week two seperate squabbles (fights) broke out. this is a stark reminder that at any given time u can b in danger. the first incident happened over a basketball game. ten people on the basketball court, someone attempts a lay-up, he's fouled a lil too hard for his liking, words are exchanged and the punches start to fly. thse guys fought out in the open. the second incident happened at food inmate was seated at a table, there was a banana on the table, an inmate in line grabs the banana off the table. the seated inmate says "thats my banana", inmate in line says, " it was on the table" ( unwanted fruit and milks are always left on the tables) name calling and threats ensued. these two guys stopped the talking and finished their breakfast. minutes later they squared off in a vacant cell, two men in, one man out. two men enter a vacant cell and only the victor exits. the loser usually requires medical attention. some prisons are called "gladiator school".

thats the way things can start here. just a banana, or just a basketball game. look out on this campus and u see manicured lawns, orange, apple, and peach trees. there are peacan and walnut trees. tennis courts and handball courts, but on any given sunday a banana can be the fruit that reminds us all that we are in a dangerous place.

i had my on lil adventure this week. i was walking the exercise track with a white inmate. we both arrived here the same day a year or so ago. we were talking about home and family. the next day he came to me and said that several guys from a group that i wont name said, that "whites dont walk the track with blacks" and "that he had better respect their rules". this guy is 6' 7" and weighs 320. he said that he told them that he is from the south and that all his freinds on his college football team were black and that he will walk with who he wants. i went and talked to some of the black inmates and they said that they (the blacks) have no such rule, but that some of the white groups expect white inmates to follow there "politics" (prison rules set by inmates). so we decided to respect that groups politics and not exercise together. but the racial devide is evident when you look at the exercise yard. the spanish guys hang at the handball courts, the blacks do the basketball courts, and the whites sit on the softball field bleechers. but all the races share the weight-room.

i started my time by my self, i started my exercise regiment alone, so i can finish it alone. plus my parents didnt teach rasicm. we actually encouraged to seek out friends from all walks of life. my parents would have dinner parties and every color of the rainbow was represented. i thank my parents for not being so narrow. if u choose your friends by the color of their skin you will miss out on some of the best friendships on planet earth.


Sunday, July 11, 2010


Everything is good. I just needed to have some time to myself after getting home from our vacation. I will see Mary tomorrow.

I have decided to upload all of the letters you send me. It makes it more real. I will make copies of your blog this week and send it to you. Hopefully you will start getting some readers soon. Sometimes it takes a little while for people to find you.

Much love and friendship,


July 11, 2010 Part 2

finally got hold of mary. she said that lucus left all the phones off the chargers while they were on vacation. she says she hae been trying to call u. i hope everything is ok with u. have a great day.


July 11, 2010

welcome back. i hope everone had a great time. mary said that her and jalen enjoyed themselves. thank you for the gift u gave jalen. with u and mary as role-models i know she will be one fantastic young lady. and thank u for all that u do, friendship is a rare commodity, especially from where i sit. mary, jalen, i r truley blessed to have u as a friend. so i do conform that yes i want that hug. thank you.

love and friendship for all the days of my life


July 6, 2010

the goal is to lose the weight, maintain a nice size, and get off the medication. the tricky part is im goona do this in a prison where i have limited nutrition, i have access to very few fresh fruits and veggies. i came to prison 305 lbs w/sleep apnea, congestive heart failure, and uncontrolled high blood pressure.

when i lost the first 55lbs i could sllep(good quality sleep) w/out a CPAP. this prison doctor told me that if i lose 50lbs i wouldnt have to take the medication. so i set out to get off the medication once and for all. now im down to 237 lbs. im on a mission to lose another 17 lbs over the next 2-3 months and to add muscle.

on monday-wed-fri for the last three months i start my day at 6:30 am. i eat 1 1/2 servings of oatmeal/bran-flake mixture, 1 tea spoon peanutbutter, 8 oz of milk (powder), and 16oz of water. at 8am i hit the rec yard and i do 500 push-ups. i break that down into 25 reps/20 sets, 1 minute rest in between sets. i drink 8oz of water rest 5 minutes then i speed walk 3 miles.(12 laps)

on tues-thurs-sat its the same start time, but for breakfast i eat 1 serving of honey O's. (fake cheerios) 8 oz milk, and 16oz water, these days i do ab exercises. i start w/20 minutes on the stationary bike, then i do crunchs, knee raises, leg kicks, and obliques. a total of 500. then i speed walk 3miles. (12 laps) since i do all this work in the morning it makes it easy to watch what i eat the rest of the day. i will eat a small meal every 2 hrs. turkey, chicken breast tenders, and ground beef. these are the proteins from meat available. i also have access to low-fat. most important is my H2o intake. i make sure i drink lots of water. i also eat lots of fruit, apples, bananas, grapefruit, oranges, and peaches when available. we also have can veggies, greenbeans, corn, zuccinne,(spelled wrong) and stewed tomatoes. so as u can see there is nutriton everywhere.

fats are everywhere too. theres always cookies, rolls, cakes, and pies laying around. so if you want to eat fats help yourself to as much as you like. and when you say you dont eat sweets people look at you like you're an alien. i guess im an alien. at home i use to take great pride in the fact that ate a cake a week.(lemon bunt cake or yellow cake w/chocolate frosting) another bad thing was the hundreds of calories i consumed drinkind soda.

i've learned to eat better. there are people that think inmates should eat rats and roaches.


July 4, 2010

thank you. happy independence 2 u 2. there is a correction officer shotting range a few 100 yards away so it always sounds like the 4th of july here. just a reminder of whats waiting if u try and jump that

the weather is great. its an eveyday 93-98 degrees. its not the humid thick heat that we have in the midwest. and for some reason its always very cloudy in the morning, then the sun breaks through around noon. so i take advantage of the over cast skys to get my workout in.

so u ladies really want to come to the lone-star state. i sure need a soft perfume fueled huggs. so make sure u bring a few with u.

got an e-mail from mary 2day wishing me a happy forth. she told me that u r leaving tomorrow morning. so u ladies drive safely and have a great vacation. take some pictures.

i had my one year review. the counselor told me to give them one more year of "good conduct" and they will send me to a camp. camps have more privledges, no fence, smaller population, and the one i want to go to is in yankton,south dakota. its about an hour forty minutes from omaha. visitors can bring "FOOD". so u know what to do, bring

i will send u a visitor form this week so we can already have you added to my list.

much love and friendship